Today and the Future

As I sit in class, listening to the guest speaker, seeing the wind blowing through the trees out of the corner of my eye, I continue to look back on what could have been and what may come to pass. While I know it is unhealthy and unwise to dwell on past decisions, I can't help but think about how things would have been different if I had made the choices that, in a way, I wish I could have made. However, I am also considering the future. Do I continue down this public history track and just utilize the landscape architecture knowledge I have gained? Or do I attempt to rejoin the landscape architecture path and finish what I began so long ago as well as my current history goal, making myself more marketable in the process. If I did return to LA, would I be able to finish this go-around or simply fail once again? They do say that the third time's the charm, but I am afraid that history may once again repeated itself. I do know that being in history is the more important part to me, I am actually enjoying my time for the first time in years, LA be damned. If only there was a better combination of those things that I love and enjoy. I suppose that only time will tell. And that, my friends, truly fucking scares me.