Quarantine

I have about another 9 days off from work and even then I don't know if we'll go back. It's been a very interesting time to say the least. I definitely wasn't expecting anything like this but then again I don't think anyone was either. I'm ready for things to normalize as much as they will. We shall see.

Holiday Cheer

It's interesting having your birthday during the holiday season and within a week of Christmas. Only get gifts this one time of year but I've never known otherwise. There are times where it seems like my cake day gets overshadowed by the Yuletide though. Not by my family but friends, especially on social media. A definite downside the times, you get those birthday reminders but so does everyone else. Now I don't hold it against anyone because it's a busy time of year, but it does encourage me to post to others, regardless of how far we may or may not have drifted apart over the years. The potential meaning for them is worth the minimal effort it takes me.

Optimism

As I look through these scant posts, it appears that I am much more optimistic about my ability to make consistent posts in the winter. Well, I'm not making any promises this time. We shall see how things go. And by we, I mean me because no one else reads these posts. Which is honestly kind of liberating. 

Once more into the breach...again

It's been just over 6 years since I've started this and about 4.5 since my last post. Needless to say, this hasn't gone exactly how I expected it to. Then again, when does anything work out like we envision it? There are the rare times when things fall into place but those seem few and far between at this point. Now I will admit that there haven't been any huge obstacles but it's the little things that wear us down the most. It's never the boulder in the road, but instead the small pebble in the shoe that pains us the most. However, there are few options other than to just persevere through these trying times. Just get up, dust ourselves off, and go at it again. After all, we just want a life worth living.

I have come to realize that I may not be cut out for this whole blogging shindig, well at least not in a serious capacity which is what I have been attempting here. Most of my posts seem to have a more serious tone rather than exposing my more whimsical side. This is probably why I don't much post, because I prefer to keep my serious issues to myself. For better or worse, this is just how I prefer to do things. And while I am not closing this shop down for good, I must rethink my approach.

Today and the Future

As I sit in class, listening to the guest speaker, seeing the wind blowing through the trees out of the corner of my eye, I continue to look back on what could have been and what may come to pass. While I know it is unhealthy and unwise to dwell on past decisions, I can't help but think about how things would have been different if I had made the choices that, in a way, I wish I could have made. However, I am also considering the future. Do I continue down this public history track and just utilize the landscape architecture knowledge I have gained? Or do I attempt to rejoin the landscape architecture path and finish what I began so long ago as well as my current history goal, making myself more marketable in the process. If I did return to LA, would I be able to finish this go-around or simply fail once again? They do say that the third time's the charm, but I am afraid that history may once again repeated itself. I do know that being in history is the more important part to me, I am actually enjoying my time for the first time in years, LA be damned. If only there was a better combination of those things that I love and enjoy. I suppose that only time will tell. And that, my friends, truly fucking scares me.

Simply Beautiful

Today was gorgeous outside. Bright, sunny, warm with a lovely breeze. it was such a nice change from the seemingly constant rainy doom and gloom that has been around since last October. I continued to workout today despite the great urge to quit about halfway through. I have also gotten back into photography with my attempts at HDR images. The hardest part of that process, at least for me, is finding the filter that I like the best. Soon, I hope to continue working on the project formerly known as my thesis. I just feel that it would nice to see a result of the work, physical and mental, that I put into it. Also, it seems to be more complicated than I feel it should be to upload photos here.