I have come to realize that I may not be cut out for this whole blogging shindig, well at least not in a serious capacity which is what I have been attempting here. Most of my posts seem to have a more serious tone rather than exposing my more whimsical side. This is probably why I don't much post, because I prefer to keep my serious issues to myself. For better or worse, this is just how I prefer to do things. And while I am not closing this shop down for good, I must rethink my approach.

Today and the Future

As I sit in class, listening to the guest speaker, seeing the wind blowing through the trees out of the corner of my eye, I continue to look back on what could have been and what may come to pass. While I know it is unhealthy and unwise to dwell on past decisions, I can't help but think about how things would have been different if I had made the choices that, in a way, I wish I could have made. However, I am also considering the future. Do I continue down this public history track and just utilize the landscape architecture knowledge I have gained? Or do I attempt to rejoin the landscape architecture path and finish what I began so long ago as well as my current history goal, making myself more marketable in the process. If I did return to LA, would I be able to finish this go-around or simply fail once again? They do say that the third time's the charm, but I am afraid that history may once again repeated itself. I do know that being in history is the more important part to me, I am actually enjoying my time for the first time in years, LA be damned. If only there was a better combination of those things that I love and enjoy. I suppose that only time will tell. And that, my friends, truly fucking scares me.

Simply Beautiful

Today was gorgeous outside. Bright, sunny, warm with a lovely breeze. it was such a nice change from the seemingly constant rainy doom and gloom that has been around since last October. I continued to workout today despite the great urge to quit about halfway through. I have also gotten back into photography with my attempts at HDR images. The hardest part of that process, at least for me, is finding the filter that I like the best. Soon, I hope to continue working on the project formerly known as my thesis. I just feel that it would nice to see a result of the work, physical and mental, that I put into it. Also, it seems to be more complicated than I feel it should be to upload photos here.

Why does everything hurt?

This is the second day of my new INSANITY workout regime and my body still hates me. Well obviously, after roughly six years of light living, it wouldn't respond favorably. It has been quite sometime since I have had my ass kicked like that. It's been a very sore day and will continue to be that way.but its a good kind of pain and hurt. The kind that reminds you that you've actually accomplished something. It feels great to be productive, to actually be doing something. It's something that I now realize that I have been missing. While it may take awhile to get where I eventually want to be, it will be well worth the effort. Once again, it is time to release the beast within.

Well now...

Has it really been that long since my last entry? Goodness me. Well as on may expect, much has changed since we last met. I am now happily a public history major and landscape architecture and I have parted ways for the time being. I might go into depth again on this later, but it remains to be seen. The most important thing, in my opinion, is that my path has changed. And I feel that it is for the better. For the first time in years, I am actually enjoying all my classes. I'm also getting out more and meeting new people. I'll admit, the changes have been slow at times, but they are occurring. I have to say, the beginning of 2012 has been quite promising and I hope it continues even if the world does end come December.